yesterday i was attacked by a bad mood. it snuck up behind me and sunk its claws in before i knew what was happening.
two main reasons: 1) i didn’t get the summer job i applied for. 2) another >1300 draw number. what kills me is my friend whose draw numbers for both the last years add up to less than 50. i hate this screwball university for more than its dining plans.
the funny thing was, neither of these setbacks really bothered me, nor did i even consider them setbacks. so i didn’t get the job–either i’d get another one or i’d go home for the summer. what does it matter? and i’m used to sucky draw numbers, so that should have been irrelevant. i guess my human nature shuffles around sometime, randomly bestowing upon me those characteristics which i thought myself better than: anger, disappointment, disillusionment, and the rest. ah well i’m better now.
what was good is that i did a lot of work last night, and got moderately caught up. now i’m only moderately behind!
right now i’m looking at 1,920,000 pixels. that’s a lot of pixels (i got a new monitor). in other news i broke my hiatus from the wall and cranked tonight. it felt good. now i just need to get running again. maybe tomorrow.
in other news, i’m going on crusade’s spring retreat this weekend, until sunday. it’s up in berkeley, so ick. but i hear the place has a hot tub. yeah i know what i’ll be doing. rock.
do you know what it’s all about? if you stop and think about it, it’s simple. LIFE, and LOVE, and WHY.
virtual disc on spin: big blue sky | bebo norman
